My Starfinder Character and I Share Notes About Self and Certainty

A Brief Prelude Transcribed from my RP Discord… Me: Our decisions will have consequences and I am both terrified and excited for what comes next. My GM: This has given me an idea. Me: Did… did our decisions not have consequences before? My GM: There are now new consequences. Me: Oh no. My GM: There were… less circumstances in the final encounter. Now there are more. Be brave. Be bold. Me, internally and externally: %$#@. A Brief History of Me and the Tabletops Tabletops are where I explore my identities. Tabletops are where I take stock of who I am and what I have done. On the weeks where I felt more dejected, the promise of my alter ego’s adventure was usually more than enough to get me through. Because they never gave up. They may have died, but they never gave up. I cannot tell you the names of every single PC (playable characters) I have ever played, but I can tell you at least one story about each. I can tell you every thought going through my head as I Random Number Generator-ed my avatar into existence even if I can’t remember the stat blocks. I can tell you the type of person that I was and the exact moment I stopped being that person and moved on. Sometimes, it was the dice telling me that this wasn’t meant to be. Sometimes, it was the dungeon’s master decree. Sometimes, it was me in a moment of quiet revelation. That last one happened a lot in my Starfinder campaign from when my first Skittermander PC sacrificed himself for refusing to rat out his crew and thi…